peppermint marshmallow ooze bubbles

my blood is rushing around my body at unimaginable speeds and i feel like exploding half the time. ive never felt happier in my entire life. i went back to santa monica and took more pictures. we rode on the ferris wheel on the pier and puttered around while the sun was setting. it was one of those days when everything slows down when the sun hits your eyes. hopefully the pictures turned out seeing as how we actually had some idea of what we were doing this time. went to my friend carolines first show ever with her band astronaut on vacation. WOW. that woman has a set of pipes. it was incredible! i cant remember the last time i was so amped after a show. ambre played me a demo of her new music with our friend bay and she blewwwwwwww me away. only two days of recording and they sound phenomenal already. my face hurts from smiling tonight. im all googley inside and i want to jump on my bed and scream like a psychopath hahaha.

this video is probably my favorite thing ever. it is about a father teaching his son how to dream and to forget the cruel world behind. the song is paralyzingly beautiful.



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hey lets cross the sea....

yesterday annaliese and i went to a very special meeting at this really cool building in west LA. there were swings built inside the building hanging from beams. im pretty sure our faces were priceless when we saw them. forget about getting kicked out...we jumped on those babies and had a good swing and then made our way to venice beach. just as we arrived, the sun was going down so we scrambled to the beach and shot a few rolls of film before it got too dark. traffic back to the homeland was insane. gotta love LA :) tomas bought me mr. beans holiday and i watched a bit of it last night before bed...rowan atkinson is a strange human.

here are a few photos from the beach...












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food for thought

its getting a bit dusty in here...

well lets see here. the beach house ended up being pretty fun. rick and i ended up going in the ocean at 3am and despite the freezing weather, the ocean was actually pretty warm. we took some photos and had some good conversation. i got to see ben who always seems to light up any room with his enthusiasm. the next day, ambre and i drove in the hellish turkey traffic to my moms house in temecula for thanksgiving. boredom seems to ooze out of everything there...which probably had something to do with us ending up at pechanga casino at midnight. THAT was an experience. fucking high school reunion. i saw so many people i havent seen in over five years. the whole thing was kind of surreal...im having a hard time finding the words to explain it.

last night before sushi hell i got to go to the trux ta poz art show at baby melt. saw some friends and met a couple swell beings. i wish i could have stayed and chatted a bit longer but all in all, it was a pretty cool show...

on another note...
the idea of starting anew at a later point in life than i had previously hoped is a tough one to overcome. better late than never :) i have received my marching order and i have finally allowed myself to be a beginner again. it is completely shocking to find out how much stress can be lifted if you just allow yourself to be a newcomer (even if you have been in the game before). the game changes.

to the person who keeps posting bulletins about people assuming they are smarter/better than others (regardless of who you are referencing)....take a look at everything youve been writing. egotism is defined as the practice of talking and thinking about oneself excessively because of an undue sense of self-importance. i am beginning to wonder if that should be stamped on your head so you can remember it. putting others down in a negative manner to objectify them and to inflate your own self-esteem is hardly something to be proud of.

HAVE SOME TACT. if you want to compare success and intellect, which is the greater man...the one who belittles others and does nothing to assist them in improving their manner; or the one who is aware of others faults and offers an open hand offering suggestions of improvement?

you did, however, get one thing correct...."It is not what you say, but what you do that defines you." the only thing that confuses me is why someone would publicly post that quote if they themselves do not utilize its advice. food for thought.

:)

here are a few photos from the beach.

















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two star hotel

there is a huge idea bubbling just under the surface. im holding onto a few things at this point in my life that i feel i need to let go of. what is the point in taking a only half a step forward? the hardest part has been taken care of. time to clean up the loose strings.

yesterday i visited todd in the hospital for a few hours and we talked. i think its time to start delving into some new terrifying adventures before i become a big grown up :) no one obtains extraordinary life stories and memories in life by sticking to what they felt was safe at the time. a few king-sized thoughts have been flitting back and forth in my mind within the past couple days as to how im going to accomplish this. i really need to stop being a pussy and caring what people are going to think.

last night i went to the art district in pomona with andy to see my friend davids gallery and art exhibit. this guy is 24, has an art gallery, shows impressive art within the space (including his own), and also has a really cool job. i think thats pretty admirable and really encouraging. turns out there were so many galleries and so much art all compacted into 2 blocks. bands playing everywhere. it was such a nice surprise. all the art was awesome and there was this rad video installation outside on the wall by marsia alexander-clarke. nine inch nails would have been proud haha.

new brothers quay and criterion collection 'brazil' dvds make me a happy girl. :)

my mom just moved into a house and offered to give me an art studio space in one of the rooms. i think im going to disappear for a few days...

this guy logan hicks has the most insane stencil work ive ever seen. go check out his site (here)





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ps. thanksgiving week is coming up...come join me and a couple friends for thanksgiving at my moms house if you dont have plans or family to spend it with. we are also going to the beach house with rick sometime during that week which should be epic.

bad mamajama

so much has been happening recently.

after a mildy irritating run-in with some roommate ignorance last night i ended up going to bed around 7:30am and slept soundly until about 10:30 when i woke up and couldnt go back to bed. i was actually having one of those dreams where youre half asleep telling yourself repeatedly to 'remember this dream' and keep falling back into it. so i end up waking up entirely after realizing that the dream i was having brought forth this great idea for an art piece. its hard to explain but it involves installation work in outdoor environments. it plays with the idea of deconstruction in society shown through swiss style design...but without type if that makes any sense. im really glad i woke up early today.

last night i went to see my friend james' band albatross play. i have only regained about 1/4 of my hearing back. totally worth it. bad mamajama is epic.

the other day i happened to be up around 6am (worst sleep schedule ever). it was super hazy and fogged up outside so i ventured out my cave to take some pictures. the idea was to catch some color on a hazy day. here are a couple...



























gordon matta-clark...ever heard of him? if you want to read a good article on him go (here). he was a profound artist and MOCA is has an exhibit featuring his work right now.

annaliese bought two vintage lomos with tons of expired film and invited me to go adventure and take some pictures with her. im really fucking excited.

came across this video of someone on a korg emx-1 covering 'a forest' by the cure. its awesome. i want one.




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