elephant bones: February 2008

let me just say this is kind of a pointless post except for the videos at the end of it. so unless you actually care to hear about the monotonous continuation of 'me' i suggest you do a bit of scrolling...

:)

things. where do i even begin. that deserves a question mark but to be quite honest, right now im not really in the mood. ive been 'living' at my moms for about a month now, give or take a few screams, and it been kind of terrible. i knew it would be, but this is a bit out of control. ive been warned that moving back in with parents can be a tough thing to sort out but weve been fighting nonstop ever since i arrived. my room isnt clean enough. i havent unpacked fast enough. i dont eat meat. im too pale. i wear black too much. my sleeping schedule resembles one of vampires and satanic cults. my car isnt clean enough. thats just a little gander into the life that i now lead. in attempts to escape my sad existence in temecula hell, i have been gallivanting back and forth between LA, orange county, and back again. conveniently, i have met someone who has become very dear to me...who lives in none other than...LA. the god damned place i just moved from.

ive been getting a bit lost; mentally. i have the bigger picture in full view at all times, though i think my glasses are a bit dusty. i need to clean em off and get back to marching toward my goal. a big reason i moved back home for a little bit is because i am getting lasik done on my pitiful eyes. think 20/800 vision. im blind as a bat. how much more goth can i really get eh? so anyways, i need a couple weeks beforehand to hobble around my house with glasses on before i get the surgery. its too hard to get a job and then have to take that time off work so soon so i am waiting until that whole mess is over with to worry about it; it wont be very long...i hope.

ive been a bit busy lately. here are a few of the things ive submerged myself in...
a few art shows here and there. canvas LA has made its way into my life a few times in the past month. its a really nice little art space and retail clothing store on fairfax devoted entirely to tattoo artists artwork. nate had a group show there last week and we had a delightful night with everyone. the jones has now become a pretty typical place to end up at the end of the night...their margherita pizza is remarkable and they play some pretty good tunes. the edison is now my favorite place in all of LA. think super classy vampire bar with old black and white silent films playing on huge screens everywhere. jazz music for the appreciative and even vintage cartoons. its built in an old shut down independent power plant hidden in the bowels of downtown. soaked in candles and draped with rich fabrics and expensive vintage furniture. id love to have my birthday there.

ive been bike riding a bit and unpacking. ive also been unpackratting which is a first. i have been re-bonding with the love of my life, oscar the poopiss, and he is actually sleeping on my leg right now which makes me a very happy lady. this past weekend i was at musink all weekend where nate was supposed to be tattooing. kat had a meet and greet at their booth and it turned into a circus so he couldnt get much tattooing done. i guess it turned out for the better because he got tattooed by one of his friends jack who is an amazing artist. shawn barber did a painting of our friend henry and then got it tattooed on his leg by one of the best tattoo artists ever, nikko. one of my best friends, jess, came to hang out with all of us. i got to hold the tiniest puddle of monkey love the world has ever known. i was so happy i was shaking. i saw 3 people puke, one including the huge tatbro in the hyatt lobby. priceless. i dropped my phone in the toilet, got a new one, and missed out on a lot of much-needed rest but it was all worth it :)

monday night leanne came to pick me up and we went to the ours and manson show in san diego. upon arrival, we ended up getting passes for after the show and hung out for a bit. we met some really cool new friends. my favorite was the ex hippie bed wetter :) har har harrrr. the next day i slept a total of about 18 hours. my body hates me right now. my health has been taking a turn for the worst lately which has been affecting my mood.

today i woke up at 5am and went on a bike ride. i made french toast and drank some tea on the patio. i drew for a few hours and wrote for about one. i filled up a camera with some old slide film i plan on getting cross-processed and drove out into the temecula wilderness. i actually got a little lost and ended up trespassing on a few private properties. i even found an old car crash that got partially swallowed by brambles and rocks. i took some photos and found my way back into town. stopped at the thrift store to drop off a few bags of clothes and took a peek inside. i got a cute old hat my grandpa probably would have worn, two pairs of granny shoes i would like to paint on, and a few really soft mens collared shirts (annaliese inspired). i love lounging in them, wearing them to the beach, actually anything. fabrics can make you feel so good sometimes. got home, had dinner and chatted for a bit, and then watched my friend from high school on his reptile show on animal planet! today was really nice. im smiling.

minigolf, beach, exploring, wineries, old town wandering tomorrow. not sure yet. and in case you were wondering, if you havent heard from me in a while dont feel avoided. ive just decided to disappear for a while. i need to get my mind back in order.

here are a bunch of things that tickle my fancy...

this alllllways makes me happy