we think too much

pish posh i am the happiest girl ever right now :)

this past month has been a rush of all possible ingredients but the cake turned out pretty damn spectacular.

a few pretty terrible things started the month off in a bit of a tailspin and im surprised i handled it as well as i did. there isnt much use getting into it all right now because it is over and done and i have moved on, however i would like to take a moment to remember a dear old friend named tony esposito. he didnt make it through his open heart surgery. i held that man in such high regards in my heart and he did a lot of pretty amazing things for me and god knows how many other people. his funeral did however, bring a lot of old friends back together; something that should have happened a long time ago; with tony there. it was a much needed eye-opener and reminded me that life can be taken from us all at any moment. RIP tony we will all miss you dearly <3

during june, i came across a devil website called stickam.com and quickly became disgustingly addicted to it. granted, i know i am stuck out in the middle of nowhere with no money and nothing to do but come on...live webcams? im 24 and pretty sure im in the oldest age group that exists on the site. during my escapades with stickam, i came across this guy john who has a show in which he paints live while running on a treadmill...while entertaining and supplying his viewers with inspirational hardware etc...sometimes drinks are involved. AMAZING. i ended up bumping into an old friend from high school in johns web room and i now have a cool new friend to hang out with in stinktown. hi tristan! so despite stickam sucking 938275932875 hours of would-be art time and adventuring out of me, i got a new buddy. woo! i am proud to say, however, that i havent been going on stickam lately...........because ive been in san francisco! :)

i would like to remind you now that this blog is solely for my own entertainment purposes later on down the road so feel free to stop reading now if youd like. it probably isnt THAT entertaining. really.

ok so yes! one of my best friends taylor had extra flight credit and gave it to me to ease the pain that temecula has been dispensing on my mind. he got me roundtrip tickets to SF and back for the first week of july. fucking rad. im pretty sure i peed a little when i got the confirmation email. so i flew up on virgin airlines (sidenote...the BEST AIRLINE EVER MADE. EVER. EVER. EVER. i never want to fly on another airline as long as i live. as a matter of fact, i had such an astonishing experience with them that i didnt want to get off the plane...which has now brought up thoughts of actually WORKING for virgin america. no joke. end side note) so i flew up and taylor met me at the airport and the adventuring began...

aside from about 100 magnificent talks, we had a wine and cheese night complete with ukuleles, harmonicas, and keyboards. we went to the amber where i was introduced to a new favorite drink, fernet and ginger, as well as a beautiful beast of a dog named wasabi who walks around and howls all night. we spent a good deal of our days/nights romping and swinging around delores park taking in all that the castro and its inhabitants have to offer. we went adventuring with our bajillion cameras at toxic beach and its surrounding areas. we spent our 4th of july at the embarcadero center during the day to see the new hunter s thompson documentary called 'gonzo' which was soooooo fucking good (sidenote: sharkees, growling tummies, grump old men, and obnoxious old ladies)

we then headed back to spend our night of cloudy fireworks in delores park. apparently last year some drunk girl blew her hand off with a firework so the cops were walking around confiscating everyones sparklers, drinks, drugs, and alcohol. it was kind of disconcerting since just about everyday delores is filled with naked people wandering around with joints and booze hanging out of their mouths. it only lasted that one night so it was ok and i had an awesome 4th...taylor even finagled a sparkler for us! i got to meet up with my lovely friend matty rue that night for 2 seconds but the cops scared him off. next time he better hang out or ill beat him with a bag filled with oranges... (sidenote: russian lumberjack, quadka, potty pants and the piddle party...poor wet bummed lady)

taylor and i went on another big adventure to a huge abandoned tuna cannery out by hunters point. it was filled with epic hallways and rooftops soaked from floor to ceiling in graffiti and artwork. we took even more photos with all our cameras and bumped into some guys tagging so we hung with them for a bit and documented. they were nice and one little asian guy showed me the pot he had stashed away in his pocket. the next day we ended up at the park and made an indian chief headdress for me. getting back to my roots i guess. yeah. we had a bit of a dance party (elliot smith, kings of convenience, radio dept, born ruffians, the legends, scott mckenzie, john lennon, shocking pinks, and windsor for the derby) and enjoyed ourselves thoroughly. there were a group of hipsters with a massive slip and slide set up on the hill and we watched them drunkenly eat shit down it. it ruled. i probably said "awww" to at least 100+ dogs all week. i love that everyone hangs out with their dogs all day. (sidenote: the island of pickle, dried pickle chip currency, count gooch and countess mika, and oscar the speedo nomad)

im going to stop there. if i tried to write about all the great things in sf i would be writing for about 8 more hours probably.

during all of this, taylor and i calculated a plan for me to get up there and to go back to school. nothing is 100% yet but i am thinking very seriously about selling my car and moving back up to go back to school. well see. until then, i am back in stinktown detoxing (the quadka did me in), working on some new art, and reminiscing on the magical times i always seem to have in rice-a-roni town.

check my myspace for the new sf photos. i promise at least some of them are worth checking out...http://www.myspace.com/Miss_Cellophane

if youre bored you should check this site out too. i think its pretty nifty.

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

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talk about ferris wheels!

talk about get the ball rolling...i went into a bar last night determined to get a job and walked out with one. proof that if you set your mind to something you can do it. its only part-time but its enough to get started :) i also made an obnoxious necklace. i found a bag filled with thousands of beads that apparently didnt make the awesome color cut back in my younger days. being the pack rat that i am, i saved them all and this was one of those liberating moments when i, the pack rat, can say 'i told you so'. ill probably never wear it....and never throw it away since ill MAYBE have some use for it when im 65. see following...



yesterday i slept til 3 which oddly left me a bit rattled since ive been on the run so much lately. i decided to stay up all night and day today to fix my schedule so i can get to bed earlier tonight. today i want to:

walk down to the pool and jump in fully clothed just because im feeling bananarific.
work on todds hunter s thompson painting since its still not done and his birthday was a couple months ago. woops. heres what i got so far...

answer at least ONE of those 800 numbers that keeps calling me.
feed the snakes.
make an epic playlist and reconfigure my shuffle.
finish resizing jamaica photos and videos.
take a picture of a stranger.
bake some cookies.
try to stay awake.

early this morning i had a conversation with someone very close and it made me realize that i truly am a lunatic. when in rome....shhhhh it made sense to me.

which reminds me...how is YOUR banana bonanza going? check out this crafty little piece of joy...

http://www.neatorama.com/2008/05/16/nana-saver/

another thing...theres this guy andrew curtis who made a pretty awesome video.


Cinco De Mayo Carnival from Andrew Curtis on Vimeo.

here are a few of the details if youre interested:
Shooting 1 second exposures every 2 seconds. A total of 2683 images in this video, played back at 12fps. Shot on 2 consecutive nights. First night was the panning tripod. While we were shooting, a guy called me back about an ad on craigslist for his Peleng 8mm fisheye. We went and picked it up at midnight and brought it along the 2nd night, when we did all the still shots.

i will never stop being inspired by barry mcgee. ever.


this is also fucking amazing...


sorry this is really entertaining to me...




have a good day and eat ya nanners!

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ya mon!!

oh jesus. where to begin....
coachella was a lot of fun but wayyyyy too hot. ryan and i nearly drove one another insane but in the long run it was totally worth it. i got to spend some time with a few of my favorite ladies and met eugene, a walking piece of art, from SF. pool parties galore and lots of walking around in the desert heat. its all kind of a blur.

the jvc video premiered on the biggest screen ive ever seen at the motley crue press convention and we massive amounts of fun. a few weeks later, the video was finally done being edited and was premiered online on the following sites:
http://www.heavy.com/video/47843
http://www.streetfire.net/
http://www.spin.com/
http://www.motley.com/
http://www.buckcherry.com/
http://www.paparoach.com/
http://www.therockvine.com/
http://www.mobile.jvc.com/
somehow through all of this, i ended up on a billboard in times square which is absolutely insane to me. the video reached over 300,000 views in the first week and is now already over half a million :)

i set sail to jamaica for five days to see my cousin get hitched and i fell in love with yet ANOTHER place in this world. i had a six hour flight to north carolina on which i met an awesome flight buddy named zach. we had a rediculous human squashed between us nearly the entire time who was oddly a dentist with a pill popping and drinking problem. both of which we had the privilege to experience in such close quarters on a long flight. mid-flight, a lady had a seizure and we had to make an emergency landing in arizona which meant that all the drinks the three of us ordered had to be sadly confiscated for landing. once we popped back up into the sky, the steward (are they even called that anymore or am i living up to my elderly nickname?) felt bad for so abruptly disconnecting us from our baby bottles of liquor that he felt the need to get us wasted for free. wow. drunk at that elevation was an experience ill never forget....or maybe i would have if zach and i hadnt DOCUMENTED our entire flight in my sketchbook!!! we traded ipods and computers only to find that we love all the same music so we synchronized our favorite songs to play at the same time through our head phones and rocked out all night while we wrote it all down so we could remember it later. im not exaggerating when i say our row was the ONLY row in the entire plane awake and fully wasted. we took FULL advantage. best. flight. ever. after we landed, we hung out during our layovers in north carolina and ventured outside to climb on a water fountain and mini bomb it with stickers. we met a random in chilis who i convinced to write in our flight journal...six pages later, we made a new friend and had a couple drinks in the bar at 8am in a state ive never visited. rediculous. see following...





we said our goodbyes and parted ways.

from north carolina, i flew solo to jamaica only to be greeted by a two hour long immigration line which totally blew because i was stuck in line with someone who kept farting...but leave it to jamaica to redeem itself because when i made it to the main terminal, i was greeted with frosty red stripe which i fully took part in. i had two hour long bus ride from the airport to the resort during which i saw tons of hotels and houses that looked like enormous pastel dollhouses, houses smaller than my room made out of scraps literally next door to these castles and also convinced the driver to sing the ever so stereotypical 'day-o'. see following...



when i arrived at the resort my family and i had a few houses on a hill all painted the colors of fruit loops, each complete with its own backyard pool and a fridge filled to the brim with liquor and about a lifetime supply of red stripe. i swear they drink it like water. at this point i was peeing pure alcohol so when nighttime rolled around, my vision was a bit depleted. i stubbed my toe so hard that i dislocated, and fractured it. ha ha. it hurt like a bitch and kept me out of the next days events which allowed me to spend some time video chatting by the pool with one of my best friends danny all day.

day three was the wedding and im just making a guesstimate here, but my grandma abducted the microphone about 5 times to sing for all of us. it was painfully entertaining and i got plenty of videos of her being a diva. go grandma! the day progressed in tons of pool jollification, pool volleyball with a bunch of strange people from all over the world and plenty of vodka pineapples to make it even more amusing than it already was. i actually shredded volleyball and since id never played before i was super happy about the whole thing.

day four, i woke up bright and early to go on a sketchy glassbottom boat complete with two jamaican comedians. i saw a ton of nude beaches, a giant coral reef, out of this world resorts and private beaches complete with local families taking full advantage of the turquoise water. from there, i escaped to the pool and convinced my grandma who has never learned how to swim to come romp around with me. she held onto a float and appeared to be having a blast. go me! from there we went to ride horses for a few hours through jamaica and ended up in the ocean. our horses went so deep in the ocean that only their heads stuck out of the water and it was one of the most unbeatable experiences ive ever had. talk about being in the moment. we learned all about jamaicas history and hung out with some locals on the beach.

we got back to the resort and went down to the beach and hung out with a jamaican photographer who was the first person working there to not be a super creep. he had tattoos and liked decent music so we all hung out for a bit and made plans to meet up later and go to a beach party. we then went into town on a shopping trip and got to take in even more sights and sounds of the jamaican culture. some jeweler made me try on a $7,000 watch and i pretended for a moment that it was actually mine while im pretty sure the jeweler pretended for a moment i was his. it was fun then he offered me weed. off we went back to the resort and we ate yet another amazing meal accompanied by even more red stripe and went to the strangest mothers day celebration ever. some guy was making creepy music on a keyboard and the resort conjured up the idea to line up a bunch of moms so we could all awkwardly watch them stand there...see following and dont forget to enjoy the music...



i got ready to meet our jamaican photographer friend. it sounds super sketchy but i suppose some of the most memorable and exciting things usually do. it was totally worth it. we drank red stripe in the ocean all night and listened to live music with his friends and talked about the differences in our countries for a few hours. jamaicans dont have 'problems' they call them situations. ya mon! did i mention his name was damaly rose? pffff uhhhmazing.

day five, i limped down to the buffet one last time and filled up with even more fresh fruit and french toast. it was time for me to venture on back to california and everyone was crying. did i mention i havent seen that side of my family in over twelve years? i took in the two hour long bus ride back to the airport like id never be back and then arrived at the airport. i was genuinely bummed when i got on the plane to fly back home and i was even more bummed when i found out i had the exit seat right next to two microscopic unbearable children whose parents were nowhere to be found. i imagined having to throw them out the plane onto the blow-up slide in case we crashed and it made me laugh. no flight will ever beat the flight with my flying buddy zach.

so ive been back in california for a week or so trying to get back into the ring of things and not doing such a great job. theres too much amazing stuff going on. im waiting for this grand finale to end but it just doesnt seem to be happening so i came home today and im going to make myself get back on track. i moved to this shit town for a reason and now im going to get the ball rolling....but first i have to upload 1098723049720491 pictures.

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hubcap diamond star halo

i spent the past few days shooting the JVC campaign in LA. i met so many awesome and talented people and got to hang out on a roof of a rad studio with one of the sexiest chevelles ive ever seen...i think the highlight of the shoot was rocking out in the car filled to the brim with people...or maybe being covered in soap suds straddling the tire. no but really though...i had no idea how big of a production it was going to be and i am about to pee my pants with excitement to see the final product. tuesday motley crue is showing some of the footage at their press conference/show and i get to go with all the awesome folks who worked on the campaign. ive never been so excited about seeing polka dots :) so as if i wasnt already in an awesome mood, one of the stylists for the shoot wants to get me to model for junker and my friend ryan just invited me to go vip to all three days of coachella. i am a damn happy lady right now. someone pinch me please.

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pickle predicaments and banana bonanzas

i woke up after only an hour of sleep today to go to the post office and get a new passport. my mom and i got into a bit of a tiff in the middle of the post office. it went kind of like this...

passport lady- so can you take those piercings out?
me- no
mom- SHE GOT THEM SOLDERED INTO HER FACE
me- uhhh no what are you even talking about?
mom- well didnt you?
me- no. youre insane.
mom- jessica ann, youre never going to get anywhere in life with metal hanging out of your face!

you get the idea.

it all escalated from that point. the entire ride home was a mess and i was trying so hard not to laugh. ive been so god damned happy and calm lately that the whole thing seemed a bit ludicrous. shes so convinced that i am someone who i am not. she judges everyone by their outward appearance needless to say, she hates mine. i got home and listened to some happy music and ate a banana. i cant stop with the bananas now. i hated them two weeks ago. operation banana was a success!

i took a nap and woke up refreshed. i got to talk to one of my old friends taylor who i get to see soon. woooo!!!! i went jogging in the dark and found out that there arent too many street lights where i live so it was a bit sketchy. i ran to the park and discovered a swingset. i started swinging and "dramamine" by modest mouse came on and i totally had a moment with myself. you know. like one of those ethereal 'i dont want to be anywhere else in the entire world right now' moments. the moon looked awesome.

dave mckean is fantastic.
from mirrormask...


the week before (roughly about the week before god created the world, he was procrastinating and fishing)


reason 9/11



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one huge and useless roar

"I wonder why the wind keeps blowing you through my mind"

i am happy. really happy. i went on another bikeride today and did some yoga. i feel good. im pretty broke but i bought an ipod shuffle so i can have some good tunes while im floating around in jamaica and bike riding around stinktown :)

i just spent entirely way too much time making a playlist that was only supposed to be 10 songs long. took a reaaaally long time. i could have been doing something a lot more productive but ill just blame it on temecula. after looking over the final result of it, i have come to the realization that i should either be on heroin or be living in another time period. or both. neither of those are going to happen. unless oscar builds me a time machine out of kitty litter. for some reason a bunch of the tracks wont play on blogger but they will on my myspace page. no idea. i wish i was in san francisco right now.

here it is. the weird thing is, i wish i could add so much more to it but i cant really figure out why because i have all this music in my itunes and i know no one else is going to listen to the whole thing anyways. technological addiction?

if youre bored...
toddhido.com ... i really love this guys photography
http://wiredpope.com/sticks.html ... entertainment for the coordinated

no matter how many years pass, these words are still just as amazing as when i first heard them...

You turn on a spindle.
You are so much looser now
but you're not explaining how you gained such new repose.
I touch the clasp of your locket,
with its picture held,
some secret you wouldn't tell but let it choke your neck.
So we imagine a darkness where all shapes divide,
solids changing into light, with a burst of heat so bright.
Well fine, don't you do what I want you to.
Don't degrade yourself the way I do because
you don't depend on all the shit
that I use to make my moods improve.
Near a sea of pianos, there were waves of chords
that crashed against the shore
in one huge and useless roar.
And there were girls bringing water,
like a dream they came to cure the fever of my brain,
and soothe my burning throat.
And they made me a necklace,
hanging beads of sweat on a string of my regrets,
and placed it round my neck and they were singing,
Don't you do what you've wanted to.
Yeah, don't destroy yourself like those cowards do
and maybe the sun keeps coming up
because it has gotten used to you
and your constant need for proof.

ps this video



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sidewalking

today i rode my bike around temecula and went jogging. i ended up finding a big field filled with flowers. i ate an apple and sat in the field for a while. i wish i had my camera but it was a happy little experience :)

about a week ago trevor and jane invited me to do a motley crue video with them in downtown la. we got to hang out all day and act like idiots...a very good time if i do say so myself. ive been getting a lot of work done on both sides of my ribs so i can have as much done by the time i go to jamaica at the beginning of may. i am REALLY excited. my cousin is getting married and my family got me a plane ticket ALL expenses paid. woooohooo!! im going to take a bajillion pictures and soak in some new ocean time. when i was a little girl, my biggest dream in life was to play the steel drums haha. im going to rage on one when i get the chance :) when i get back i have a little roadtrip to SF planned with jess. i am really excited to see taylor because i havent seen him in a long time. home brewed beer and veggie picnic in the park with a few good cameras. makes me smile to think about it. ill hopefully be able to meet up with matty for a spot of tea as well.

i got a new diana F+ camera in the mail yesterday. i am very excited to start taking some photos with it. the thrift store hooked me up with an old polaroid camera and a ninoka nk-700 for a grand total of 3 dollars so im pretty stoked about that as well. ive been experimenting with some different types of film in different cameras as well as mixing up the development processes. im pretty excited about some of the results. i really think that riding my bike around to take photos is my favorite thing to do now.

i had an audition the other day and brought ambre along with me in the hopes that at least one of us could get the job. the guy throwing the audition was a really rad person i met at the motley crue shoot. too bad it was the most obnoxious thing ever!! i had to pretend that a white swivel chair was a car and i was washing it....while trying to look super hot. they had music blaring and about 10 people were all watching. :) yeah. good times. they invited us to hang out after and watch more of the auditions so we hung out for a bit and then left. i just got a call and i got the job! wooo! this should be interesting...i got to hang out with brittany and ambre the night before that and then after the audition a few of us all went out to a cancer benefit show. i had SO much fun and got to spend some time with ryan who i havent seen for a while. good times. f

i need to finish the hunter s thompson painting and move on to something new. ive got some ideas rolling around.

here are a few photos i got developed the other day. they arent edited. larger versions are available on my myspace.





























this video blew my fucking mind. its amazing.


this is an interesting elliot smith documentary that i really enjoyed watching...


this made me laugh. i want to have a root beer kegger and fuck with the po po :)


and last but not least...this made me smile.


ps...for those of you who havent seen robert and shana parkeharrison's work, go check it out. the premise for their photos is awesome. out of this world you might say ;) har har

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