wrinkly brain

let me just say this is kind of a pointless post except for the videos at the end of it. so unless you actually care to hear about the monotonous continuation of 'me' i suggest you do a bit of scrolling...

:)

things. where do i even begin. that deserves a question mark but to be quite honest, right now im not really in the mood. ive been 'living' at my moms for about a month now, give or take a few screams, and it been kind of terrible. i knew it would be, but this is a bit out of control. ive been warned that moving back in with parents can be a tough thing to sort out but weve been fighting nonstop ever since i arrived. my room isnt clean enough. i havent unpacked fast enough. i dont eat meat. im too pale. i wear black too much. my sleeping schedule resembles one of vampires and satanic cults. my car isnt clean enough. thats just a little gander into the life that i now lead. in attempts to escape my sad existence in temecula hell, i have been gallivanting back and forth between LA, orange county, and back again. conveniently, i have met someone who has become very dear to me...who lives in none other than...LA. the god damned place i just moved from.

ive been getting a bit lost; mentally. i have the bigger picture in full view at all times, though i think my glasses are a bit dusty. i need to clean em off and get back to marching toward my goal. a big reason i moved back home for a little bit is because i am getting lasik done on my pitiful eyes. think 20/800 vision. im blind as a bat. how much more goth can i really get eh? so anyways, i need a couple weeks beforehand to hobble around my house with glasses on before i get the surgery. its too hard to get a job and then have to take that time off work so soon so i am waiting until that whole mess is over with to worry about it; it wont be very long...i hope.

ive been a bit busy lately. here are a few of the things ive submerged myself in...
a few art shows here and there. canvas LA has made its way into my life a few times in the past month. its a really nice little art space and retail clothing store on fairfax devoted entirely to tattoo artists artwork. nate had a group show there last week and we had a delightful night with everyone. the jones has now become a pretty typical place to end up at the end of the night...their margherita pizza is remarkable and they play some pretty good tunes. the edison is now my favorite place in all of LA. think super classy vampire bar with old black and white silent films playing on huge screens everywhere. jazz music for the appreciative and even vintage cartoons. its built in an old shut down independent power plant hidden in the bowels of downtown. soaked in candles and draped with rich fabrics and expensive vintage furniture. id love to have my birthday there.

ive been bike riding a bit and unpacking. ive also been unpackratting which is a first. i have been re-bonding with the love of my life, oscar the poopiss, and he is actually sleeping on my leg right now which makes me a very happy lady. this past weekend i was at musink all weekend where nate was supposed to be tattooing. kat had a meet and greet at their booth and it turned into a circus so he couldnt get much tattooing done. i guess it turned out for the better because he got tattooed by one of his friends jack who is an amazing artist. shawn barber did a painting of our friend henry and then got it tattooed on his leg by one of the best tattoo artists ever, nikko. one of my best friends, jess, came to hang out with all of us. i got to hold the tiniest puddle of monkey love the world has ever known. i was so happy i was shaking. i saw 3 people puke, one including the huge tatbro in the hyatt lobby. priceless. i dropped my phone in the toilet, got a new one, and missed out on a lot of much-needed rest but it was all worth it :)

monday night leanne came to pick me up and we went to the ours and manson show in san diego. upon arrival, we ended up getting passes for after the show and hung out for a bit. we met some really cool new friends. my favorite was the ex hippie bed wetter :) har har harrrr. the next day i slept a total of about 18 hours. my body hates me right now. my health has been taking a turn for the worst lately which has been affecting my mood.

today i woke up at 5am and went on a bike ride. i made french toast and drank some tea on the patio. i drew for a few hours and wrote for about one. i filled up a camera with some old slide film i plan on getting cross-processed and drove out into the temecula wilderness. i actually got a little lost and ended up trespassing on a few private properties. i even found an old car crash that got partially swallowed by brambles and rocks. i took some photos and found my way back into town. stopped at the thrift store to drop off a few bags of clothes and took a peek inside. i got a cute old hat my grandpa probably would have worn, two pairs of granny shoes i would like to paint on, and a few really soft mens collared shirts (annaliese inspired). i love lounging in them, wearing them to the beach, actually anything. fabrics can make you feel so good sometimes. got home, had dinner and chatted for a bit, and then watched my friend from high school on his reptile show on animal planet! today was really nice. im smiling.

minigolf, beach, exploring, wineries, old town wandering tomorrow. not sure yet. and in case you were wondering, if you havent heard from me in a while dont feel avoided. ive just decided to disappear for a while. i need to get my mind back in order.

here are a bunch of things that tickle my fancy...

this alllllways makes me happy


awesome old mgm cartoon


this rules


awesome artwork


'terminus' by trevor cawood. brilliant short.


a surprisingly touching french short about a maggot becoming a fly


a gorgeous short about war


wong kar wai (2046) made a stunning short


really cool time era design/typography video...its 3D if you have 3D glasses :)


dope typography short


for those of you whole love typography as much as i do heres a clip from the helvetica movie


eerie animated short


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toodaloo LA!

i am finally getting the hell out of LA. dont get me wrong, its been a fun little excursion, but im so ready to move on. ive spent most of my time here drunk and i havent accomplished much. the past four months of not drinking and working on art have made me realize how much i need to get back to my adventuring ways. in one month i am moving out of my house to go live with my mom in the worst town ever for a few months. (bite the bullet and sacrifice eh?) i plan on working my butt off and saving up my money until i have enough to move on. from there, i am going on a road trip across the US to stay with all of my friends and family who are conveniently dispersed across the states. this is a time for me to become more independent, and to get some much needed inspiration along the way. i plan on taking so many photos and also a video diary of the whole thing. i am going alone, however, if anyone feels that they would like to join me for a little wedge of it, let me know. id love to have a little company so i can dawdle around in old fucked up hotels without being nervous im going to get my face cut off and reattached to my ass. either way im a little bit terrified. i cant wait to get my hands on all these great stories ill be able to tell when im a rickety old lady. i will most definitely be staying in the chelsea hotel while i am in new york. im getting butterflies just thinking about it.

so ANYWAYS. once i get back from my road trip, i am moving to san francisco to get back into school (finally). this last trip has really made me realize how much i really love it. i am fond of being able to walk everywhere and take bart instead of driving. who knows, maybe ill hate it. but im not going to find out until i try. this year is already turning out to be so bold and exciting. i wasted so much time sitting around on my butt and not getting out to adventure and see new things. 6 months ago, if myself in eighth grade met me, shed be pretty pissed and discouraged. but now, if myself as an eighth grader met me, shed be pretty inspired and enthusiastic about growing up.

spontaneity is the theme of 2008. my ribs hurt :)



i only have the outline and a teeny bit of shading on one side but it will eventually be two chris conn pieces on both sides of my ribs. so happy about it already!

i got to see jimmy gnecco last night at hotel cafe and, as always, his voice make me dizzy. he is the most amazing vocalist i have ever experienced. he sang all my favorite songs (solo and by his band 'ours') and also sang 'cryin' by roy orbison and ave maria. my knees were literally weak. i then got to experience oldies night across the street with my dear friend ricker. im going to miss him when i leave.

i think today i am going to go get my favorite veggie lentil soup at coffee table bistro and then walk around in griffith park for a bit :)

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conducting the deviance

photography can be such an aesthetically pleasing experience that we sometimes tend to forget about the narrative behind the photos. sometimes, the story isnt imperative depending on the purpose of the piece of art being shown, however, for those of you who are as interested in the 'tale behind the photograph' as i am, you need to check out simon hoegsberg when you have a few spare minutes. simon starts you out by laying a path to wander forward on. for example...in his project entitled "the low-fat diary", he begins by explaining that he was,

"Equipped with a camera, a pen, a notebook, and a few indispensable items such as my iPod, a tent, and a couple of pots, in the winter 2004 I set out to travel the 1700 kilometers (1050 miles) from Copenhagen to the Mediterranean Sea. I wanted to know if I could cover the distance with only 14 Euros in my pocket."



we roam with him on his trip in copenhagen to the mediterranean sea through a series of photographs. under each, a caption shedding light on the phenomena of that particular day...every one of them containing just enough information to allow the onlookers to feel as if they were right there with him sharing his circumstances. there are only 10 or so photos which keep the whole experience short and sweet; he leaves us wanting more. perhaps enough to go check out his other captivating projects...or even better, enough to go on our own photographic adventures :)

for those of you who are interested in street art, simon hoegsberg also composed a small project which includes a few stories told by shepard fairey, wk interact, HuskMitNavn, Lokiss, and Faile. his projects all widely encompass the many aspects of art in todays culture.

simon hoegsberg

i have started to compile a list of some of my favorite websites on the right. . .

new life plans are beginning to quietly assemble themselves.




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san fransilly

here are a few photos from san francisco...ill post more soon.

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chelsea hotel

"if i meet you in the night you're free to covet all you like. don't you try and stop me i cling tightly...to this life."

lets see, this past week or so has been exceptionally insane. one of the sushi chefs at work made me erupt in tears in front of the entire restaurant which resulted in me leaving work early. (really? yes i suck.) i then got pretty sick and stressed due to a lot of adorable little matters parading through my existence. in attempts to mend the hiccups of life, i took a little roadtrip to san francisco with my dear friends danny and travis. i can officially say that i wont be playing 20 questions for a long time...i think we played that almost the entire way back to LA. pretty sure all of our brains melted...and FOR THE RECORD steam is made out of water AND air pshhhhh. travis cheats. :) i had the best pizza ever, spent some time taking pictures on the beach, listened to some wonderful music, dawdled around on haight street, enjoyed some delicious apples from the fruit market, hung out in my favorite little book store, chit chatted with the cop who pulled us over, jumped out of the car mid-traffic to take a picture of morrissey (on a sticker but still), stole pocketbooks (not purses you weirdos...books that fit in pockets), hung out in the freezing rain and loved it, bruised my hips from sleeping on a wood floor, saw anton off to a job interview (how did it go?), saw the world through heart-shaped glasses, and drank tons of coffee. i cant wait to go back...i love it there so much. came back to LA and took danny behind the orange curtain to trevors goth castle and to get the best vegan sandwiches EVER. shared some critical videos and watched part of 'the picture of dorian gray'. i think danny and i are somehow related. come back you nutball! next stop...the chelsea hotel and adventuring in new york. excitement comes in many forms.

which brings us to...

ohhhh christmas. i have grown accustomed to being able to go find tons of little treasures for my friends and family in the past years, which i thoroughly enjoy doing. this year, however, has been a very different story. being downright broke has put a bit of a damper on my cooperative shopping system. up until about 36 hours ago i had absolutely no idea how i was going to get presents out to my family. i had a bunch of pieces of wood, random art supplies, and an enormous artistic block that i usually cure pretty easily. ive been ill the past couple weeks which im sure also had something to do with the crater that i couldnt get myself out of. im still not sure why my block ended, but boyyyy did it end. all of a sudden i just started pumping out these little gems. for the first time since i started to resaturate myself in art, i have actually been creating things that i am proud of and excited to share with my loved ones. here is a shitty picture of some of the things ive been working on. ill post better photos later.



my room looks like a tornado hit it. sandpaper, shards of wood, paint, eensy beensy pieces of paper...cleaning it all up is going to rule. i dont know how im getting down to my moms house for christmas tomorrow because the good ol' tank is emptier than a pizza box in my presence but ill work it out somehow. she doesnt even have a christmas tree which totally blows. maybe ill make one out of cardboard for her. i really cant believe its already been a year. complete madness i tell ya. if youre wondering why i keep referencing food, its because im FUCKING HUNGRYYYYY. feed the beast!

i hope everyone has a splendiferous (real word) holiday.



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booger rubies

i feel like i found a ruby in a sea of boogers :) no really. is this a dream? i need to stop pinching myself before i rip a gaping hole in my arm.

"the truth of a life really has little to do with its quality. the quality of life is in proportion, always, to the capacity for delight. the capacity for delight is the gift of paying attention..."

recently i have been writing a lot and its been really hard to get comfortable; mentally as well, but i meant more along the lines of physical ease. i havent actually sat down to write in a very long time and i suppose that before, it was mostly because i was in school. most of the time i would be sitting at a desk and my hands were accustomed to the exertion but now....not so much. i have been trying to lay in bed and write, or hunched over my own lap and would always end up contorted in some creepy position trying to get comfortable. so enough of that. i realized that we have two perfectly usable tables with chairs in the backyard...buried in a minefield of leaves, 4th of july trash, and potato bugs. i spent a long time the other day sweeping up all the leaves, hosing it all down, and chit chatting with the neighbors until i finally finished. i even caught a black widow who has been hanging out ever since...if anyone sees it crawling around dont be alarmed...just KIDDING geeeeeez its residing safely in a closed container on the kitchen counter. i sat outside, read my book, and wrote a bit until the sun went down. all in all, i had an awesome day and i am very proud of myself for doing so much yardwork.

on another note...i just got the most amazing letter in the real life snail mail from one of my best friends. there is definitely something very endearing about being able to physically hold a little message in your hands and know that whoever wrote it to you has done the same. i think i am going to follow his lead and start mailing out some letters.

danny, the christmas tree shitter, will be down from seattle by tomorrow night and i cant wait to adventure. crispin glover is going to be in san francisco doing a little film thing and we are trying to make it out there on time.

siphoning gas and stealing food?
most likely.
i am terribly excited.

i was recently reminded of how much i love this movie...


visual and comedic masterpiece!

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peppermint marshmallow ooze bubbles

my blood is rushing around my body at unimaginable speeds and i feel like exploding half the time. ive never felt happier in my entire life. i went back to santa monica and took more pictures. we rode on the ferris wheel on the pier and puttered around while the sun was setting. it was one of those days when everything slows down when the sun hits your eyes. hopefully the pictures turned out seeing as how we actually had some idea of what we were doing this time. went to my friend carolines first show ever with her band astronaut on vacation. WOW. that woman has a set of pipes. it was incredible! i cant remember the last time i was so amped after a show. ambre played me a demo of her new music with our friend bay and she blewwwwwwww me away. only two days of recording and they sound phenomenal already. my face hurts from smiling tonight. im all googley inside and i want to jump on my bed and scream like a psychopath hahaha.

this video is probably my favorite thing ever. it is about a father teaching his son how to dream and to forget the cruel world behind. the song is paralyzingly beautiful.



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